I shared the other day about the Heart Place and God has been stirring something in my heart ever since. I feel led to share with you...
We just found out a few hours ago that my 2nd mother-in-law (Sandy's) dad had just had a heart attack. We just went to his 80 something birthday party 2 weeks ago and he was so happy to see so much of his family there. His wife kept saying, listen, just listen to the stories going on all around us. She is used to just the three of them at home every day. He said he hoped he was around this time next year to enjoy this again. I have been praying comfort and peace for him and all the family during this time.
I went to give Logan a bath and I was sitting there thinking about what I was about to blog. Then it hit me... our hearts have been under attack. Not just physically, but spiritually too! I have heard several stories lately from ladies who have had chest pains, shortness of breath, similar to the pains I was having, and they have been in to see the Dr.; had all sorts of tests ran, and everything shows to be fine. They have said maybe it was just nerves or anxiousness. This has had me thining lately.
Could it be that our hearts are experiencing this anxiousness, nervousness, stress and timidness and we have a way to have this restored? I remember last semester during our Embrace Grace prophetic night, a lady said that she could see my heart trembling. She said I had a trembling, anxious heart and that God wanted to free me of that. They prayed for me and I remember tears streaming down my face and the fresh release that I felt. No more trembling of my heart!
Maybe you are anxious about a job that you have been waiting on for so long, or how are you going to make this month's house payment? Things may seem to be piling up and you wonder if you will ever have time to get it even started, much less finished. Your list goes on and on. Maybe you keep hearing the news reports and are wondering what's going to happen tomorrow? Whether your questions and anxiety is something big or small. If you are confused and full of doubt... Don't give up, have no fear. God is near. He will never leave you or forsake you. You are not alone. Many of us are having the same feelings and it helps to share our feelings with others. Our church has life groups that help create lasting friendships and prayer partners.
Speaking of the Heart Place, I went to my check up on Thursday, Oct. 8th. I went in expectant, (my bags were already packed) and I heard the perfect song that morning while getting ready. As I heard it, I knew that my Daddy was speaking to me and saying I was "Safe." I need to get the words from this song so that you can hear the assuring words. I played the healing cd by Holly Wagner on the way to Dallas, heard my scripture again that I cling to... "Affliction will not arise a 2nd time." Nahum 1:9- for me that is a promise that no more blood clots will come against me! Sat in the waiting room for them to call me back. Walked past the painted art on the wall as she called my name. I had seen this artwork before, but today it took on a new meaning. There were hearts of all different solid colors... red, blue, orange, green, silver, white, and more (10 total) the last heart was a rainbow of colors. To me, that was another sign of God's promise that I held onto.
I had to explain the chest pains that I had a few weeks prior. She started sonogram on my right leg and asked if there was any pain? I said no, it feels great. This was the leg that had the blood clot 2 years ago. Then she said this leg is clear, looks great. She decided to check the left leg just to make sure, for peace of mind she said. She started sonogram on the left leg and the whole time I felt such a peace. I was looking up to the ceiling and rejoicing in my mind. She said, ok- this leg is clear too! NO blood clots! I already knew the answer because I was holding onto the promise of a lifetime from my Daddy! Even though I can not explain or understand the reasons for the pains before, I fully feel that God has healed me and there will not be any more chest pains! I have been pain free since the 11th day- October 2nd. Thank you for all of your prayers! I know that God heard each and every one of them!
My prayer for you is that if your heart has been under attack... if you have a trembling, anxious, nervous heart... if clouds of doubt keep arising... can you look up to God and ask Him for help and healing? He longs to restore you and your heart! May you find peace and rest in His arms and may He comfort you.