We were at Logan's gymboree class on Thursday and saw a sweet mama and her little 2 year old girl. The mama had been pregnant last time I saw her. She said she was past her due date, but did not want to be induced, she wanted to wait until her baby was ready. She knew he was safe, sound and fully protected. She went 2 weeks past her due date and her Dr. said the fluid was getting a little low so he induced her last Friday. Little Elliot had been deliverd 6 days ago after being over 14 days past due date. I kept thinking about that throughout my day.
If like me, your delivery date that you thought would be "the day"... but that day passed and a new day began, please do not be discouraged. I know it is easier to say than do. Let me share another little story. I shared how I felt that after 10 days of the chest pains and suffering, I had faith and believed it would be completely gone. Well, Thursday was the 11th day. I woke up fully believing. I had packed my bags the night before and was expectant. Helped Landan get off to school, took Logan to his Dr. for his 2 year check up (he had to get shots, flu mist up his nose, and his finger pricked- he was not happy about that.) Then we went to gymboree and saw the sweet mama that had just delivered her baby 6 days before. I was still feeling the chest pain come and go, but last only a split second and I would pray, then the pain would flee.
My friend Amy texted me and said tell me how you feel honestly. I was honest and told her they were split second pains and it had actually moved to the other side. I came home that afternoon and I have to be honest and say that I did get a little discouraged. I started my monthly so I was a little emotional anyways and shed a few tears. Then Landan even said, Mom, I thought you said the pain would be gone yesterday on the 10th day. I said, sweetie, I can not question God and He has promised me in His timing, so I believe!
After getting the boys tucked into bed, I was ready for my quiet time with my Daddy. I really felt like He had so much to tell me. Throughout the day I kept repeating, today is the 11th day, 11 means transition or stop. The pains must stop! I took a relaxing bath and just soaked in His presence for a while. I prayed that nothing would come between me and Daddy. Then began praying some prayers from my Kairos book. I was about 2 paragraphs down on the Blessings of Forgiveness when I heard, there is a wall that you have put up around your heart. I began to really pray and ask God to completely destroy that wall that I had put up to help from being hurt. I prayed that it would be knocked down and bulldozed so that everything was scraped away and nothing was left but the soil for good seeds to come forth. Felt such a sweet release after this. I realized that the wall had just been put up less than 2 weeks ago. I prayed for forgiveness.
Then I sat at His feet and waited on Him at my quiet place. I felt a release, then stood up and walked through the bedroom and noticed the clock said 12:04 am. I really wanted to worship now. I put in Healing Waters cd by Klaus Keuhn and Kari Jobe. Felt such a sweet peace and then heard the words, the pain began in your back, and is ending in the back and it ended on the 11th day! I rejoiced and fully believed!